The heat is on !

Sorry i haven't updated for a bit guys- yes i know i'm slack but i had to go and dj that abomination of an excuse for a party in childers and then got back and had to go to work so it's just been go go go !!

On the weight loss front as of this morning currently sitting on a very nice figure of 99.5.  I'm ok with that- but  i have the following social events coming up to keep me motivated

-September 6th - my birthday

-September 27th - the grandparents 50th wedding anniversary party

-October 11th- wedding back home in Innisfail (which  haven't been back to since i left in 2003 !!)

-Octber 18th- Goosey Lucy's 18th birthdy party

- Mid November- The 1RAR ball.  The first one my lovely husband has ever invited me to.  

Sooooo long story short i'd like to try and lose 20kg in 12 weeks (copletely laughable, yes i am aware..)   But most of these army wives are like size 10 so yeah..  If i could at least get to 80kg that'd help !  I wouldn't have to go looking like fat albert. 

On a more positive note i got a fill the ther day so i now have 5.5 ml in a 10 ml band.  Nearly pb'd last night for the first time since re-banding.  I was scared shitless !!  Cannot afford another slip at all- my dr says 3 strikes and you're out.  Bugger !!  

Hope everyone else is travelling ok..

thought and wishes and hugs 

Sami Xx

Ok.. it's time for crisis mode !

So in my last post i was talking about this wonderful dress i'd found to wear to my grandparents 50th anniversary party.. And i was so excited cos it was a really pretty dress and i was glad not to have to stress about it anymore. Well- got the order confirmation today. Dress is on backorder and won't be posted until at least the 05/11/08. The party is the 27/09/08. You can imagine how impressed i am. There was alot of swearing going on to say the least !! So now i'm back to square one.

On the weightloss front it hasn't been real flash either just quietly. I got below the 100 which i was ecstatic about and then back over- probably due to the pizza and hungry jacks i ate yesterday.. celebrating my last night of eating gluten. Because as of today Bridget and I are on strict gluten free diets ! I've tried this before to no avail cos everything i like has gluten in it.. Mmmmm. So here we go again, but this time, i'm playing to win.

Til next time-
Sami Xx

This is the magical hill that i want to walk up

I'll be down at the gym.. Just working on my fitness, she's my witness ;)

Hi Everyone,

well i finally did it !!!  I cracked the 100 kg mark !  Excited is the understatement of the year.  But now what i reallllly need to concentrate on apart from getting the weight down on the scales is actually re-shaping and toning my body.  So for this, i have chosen pilates.  And of course walking as well.  I went walking tonight and I'm proud to say that i got 6 km done in just under 40 minutes.  I smashed it.  I was so pleased.  Which is really good because i have a fitness goal.  For those of us who are Townsvilleites or familiar with the area there's this massive rock  sitting right in the middle (just behind my house) called Castle Hill.  To walk up and back is about 8 km, so it is my goal to be able to fit enough to get all the way up and back down that hill !!!!  So i need to gradually ease myself into it.  I'm going to put a picture up on the blog of the hill as soon as i can work out my new computer because my gorgeous husband has just bought me a brand spanking new apple mac desktop.  The big big 24" ones.  It's brilliant and i love it so much i'd have sex with it if i could !  Pretty happy with this weekend.. Apart from the drama with the dr on saturday of which i'll post another time- but long story short it'll be ending in a complaint to the health rights commission and the owner of the practice.  I'm so sick of being fucked around !!!  

Hope everyone else is keeping their motivation..

Oh and i've found a dress for my grandparents 50th anniversary party on the 27th of September (for which i'd like to lose at least another 10 kg for.. hopeful.. lol !!)  So i'm pretty psyched up for that.  Looking forward to it.

I'll write about the dr debarcle tomorrow if i can and post a picture of this huge motherfucker hill !!!

Talk Soon,

Sami Xx

The Green Eyed Monster..

This blog is going to be a rant- you have been warned.

I know i'm not the best person in the world to keep up with the exercise and the good eating but i mean there are worse people than me that are losing a whole lot more weight. I know i've had a setback with the slipped band and that but it fucks me off no end to see people that were banded after me and have lost more. My health is also not in the best shape at the moment but i just cannot help beating myself and simply being- jealous. People lose weight at different rates bla bla bla.. you'll get there.. bla bla bla. It's just shit. I've been kicking myself cos I haven't lost more, it's like i've plateaued and now i don't know what to do. It just shits me. I've booked myself in for a fill on Tuesday though. Only having 2.5ml in is utterly ridiculous.

Now on to the rant about my doctors. I'm still having iron injections because i'm STILL bleeding. Yep you heard it right.. after all this time, i'm still going. They've put me on 6 progesterone pills a day and it's still not stopping it. I'm so annoyed. I'm annoyed that i feel like crap, i'm annoyed at the medical bills i have to pay and most of all i'm annoyed at their incompetence. Theior latest theory is that there might be some placenta left in my womb from when i had my daughter 2.5 years ago.. They dug some out during a D&C last year but they think i might have to have another one. I tell you what, if they do and there's anything in there i'll be taking legal action. They didn't find the first bit of placenta until my daughter was 14 months old so by the stage i had pelvic inflamatory disease from all that yukky being left in there for so long so then they told me cos of that infection my fallopian tubes are possibly rooted and to fall pregnant again i might need IVF. More money.. Theiving bastard doctors. So i'll blog about how all that crap goes down as it happens.

Finally, I have to DJ this party in a couple of weeks and i cannot find an outfit. Everything i look at is frigging horrid or alternatively made for a 50 year old. It's starting to become a major fashion crisis. This party is like two and a half weeks away !! At this point i'll be going to the camping stores to enquire about embellished circus tents.

On a more positive note i'm losing my voice. How exceptional when you work in a call centre.
Send me positive vibes people !!

Sami Xx

Weekly tasks are back like cooked crack !

Ok, i know i've been slack on the weekly task front but i've been sick and tired and over everything. I've just been on a real downer the last week and being back on those nasty injections doesn't help. And being ravenous isn't real flash either just quietly ! So i've booked a fill for next tuesday and i suppose i'll just have to suffer the dreaded 101.9 til then. BUT this is where the weekly task comes in..

I have a magical exercise bike sitting in my lounge room that sits there looking lovely. My aim for the week is to ride the fucker for 45 minutes every day in a bid to try and get me under the hundred as quick as possible. I'm busting to be into the double digits.. Not that i'm behaving like it though i must admit. So that's the goal for this week.

I've had a really bad day at work today. I want to stab work through it's bastard demon heart. I was in the door for like 10 minutes and my team leader was getting up me.. Usually my TL is rad but today no way. PIssed me off no end. So then i was pissed from 8 in the morning til i walked out of the silly place at 5.20. I need to get myself organised, sort out what i wanna do and get on with it. If i'm going to do my degree i need to get on with it and stop fucking around !!!

I've been thinking to myself about this weight loss thing what i'd like to do for myself as an ultimate goal.. and as the Tiffany ring is out of reach at the moment i had to come up with an alternative. So, i was walking past this glamour photography place in Campbelltown when i was in Sydney and there was this pic in the window of this chick all done up but she was naked. You could see none of her bits but by george it was tasteful. It really was a beautiful photo. So i've decided that's what i'm going to do- pose naked. But i want the pic done the same as that chicks.. And after i get my tits done as well. I've never been brave enough to think about doing that but i'm motivated. I know i can do this. And so can all of you reading this.

Stay positive-
Sami Xx

Shit of a day

Today started out fairly good.. (No movement on the scales but that's another story..lol) until around 2 o'clock when i get a call from my Dr's office (GP), saying come in the doc needs to see you about your blood test results so that's cool.. Arranged to flex off with my team leader and went to the doctors. Turns out my iron levels and stores are so fucked again from all this bleeding that not only aren't the iron pills i've been taking are not working, that i have to go back on injections every second day until my levels come back up. Now for those of you who haven't had experience with iron injections before, they're intramuscular and the only needle that's worse than iron is penicillin. They leave bick black stains and i'm talking the size of a hand wherever they give them to you.. And just generally they are nasty motherfuckers cos they hurt so bad. So i had one today and obviously did not feel like going back to work. I went a touch rank at my Dr telling him i'm over this shit.. I've spent hand over fist in dr's bills in the last year to get no answers and i'm sick to death of getting the same old bullshit story.

Then at work earlier in the day i chipped my tooth. I was soooooooo pissed. I grind my teeth and i got a splint a couple of weeks ago but obviously the damage has been done and yeah i chipped it. It's not noticeable but it's noticeable to me.

Then i get home only to fight with the commando cos he wants to go out drinking with his fuckwit mates. God he shits me sometimes.. All men are selfish bastards !!!!
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Peace out.
Sami Xx